Its my birthday and i'll cry if i want to...

Well it'll be my birthday in abt 1hrs time, 1 hr 8mins to be exact... Schools begun again after last weeks ad-hoc holiday... well i can't really say it was an impromtu one as it probably was in my timetable had i taken the effort to look it up on the student portal, thou i think it wasn't really a holiday, it was more like the school had things to do kinda like in secondary school they gave us breaks when they had to mark papers and stuff... Boy i miss secondary school, thou i was a really a shy boy back then well i'm much better now, i think...

Well so i'm 23 tomorrow and i hate to say this but i'm thining of you again, just wondering if you even remember... And i just realised that all i have of you is that card you gave me on valentines day, the day we spent picnicing under the moonlight, boy i was in love i tell you, thou i could barely walk due to my operation, you went through the trouble of cooking something up, even thou it was probably your maid who had done so and i ordered a gift for you online, the little bear and the flowers... But still its only the card that is within my grasps, nothing else of material other than the memories i have of you and the times we spent together... I wish that i could spent this day with you cause its not gonna be very special without you by my side i know i have my family, but i would like you here too... i know that they will accept you regardless of your race or then again maybe i'm just assuming they will... but even then they cannot tell me who i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with, its my life and i wanna be with somone i love... I hope that that person loves me more than you ever did and guides me the way you did. For if theres one thing i loved is that you always know what to do even when i was lost and you would always have the answer, i know at times i may have difficult so for that i'm extremely sorry.

If i have applied any kind of pressure on you then i'm sorry. I've probably said sorry to you countless times especially after we've parted. i've been angry, depressed, crazy etc etc haha
but i know you have it in your heart to forgive me, i pray that the next guy whom you gonna be with takes care of you and loves you even more than i did and is able to take care and protect you the way that i would have. Hmm but if we're both single at the age of 30, how about we get together?? haha :] ok maybe 30's too young? if i'm 30 then you'd prob be around 27... By then don't tell me you still have academics as your top priority?

ok its now 40 mins to my birthday... Whos gonna be the 1st wisher or does anyone even remember?

It hurts when someone who you thought loved you so very much says : i ' did' love you
Your "beloved" wordsmith signing off...