Ramblings and Burblings

sigh... its almost 2am and i'm still awake thinking about her... boy i miss her and shes probably with some other guy now... talked to one of her frens but she didn't wanna tell me if she was seeing anyone but by not telling me its like quite obvious or maybe i'm just being paranoid, i've always been this way. Anyway its been 3months so she's probably moved on from me, i probably meant nothing to her anyways but why didn't i see it coming. she always got me to be optimistic and always got me on my way even me continuing my education was thanks to her, but also because i wanted to do well for her, so i could be with her but all this doesn't matter now.

i mean it doesn't matter to her how i feel for her, nothing much just that she means the world to me. so i guess its like she brought the world tumbling down on me. I wish i could hold her one last time and tell her how much she meant to me i would never let go ever again... never ever..... Why oh why must the world have people classified into races and colour its like so unfair that love can fail because of such a dopey reason... And of all people it has to be me... I feel so lethargic and tired... I have a bloody test morrow and i couldn't even get down to studying... what am i to do? i'm probably gonna fail morrows test.. well gd luck me... and gd nite cyberspace.. i'm gonna try to get back to sleep...