Aloha peeps i'm back and posting like so soon again... anyway went for a birthday party last night.. well it wasn't the kinda party where u wld associate with chicks booze and sex.. haha more like one with lotsa kids, kids and more kids.. haha yes a kiddie party.. The daughter of me mums fren.. a family thats quite close to us...

For those of you who know me well you'll be glad to know that i met someone there last night.. And shes the cutest, and shes gonna be my gf.. Her names michelle.. Anyway heres the pics from the bdae last night.. and i'll point out michelle to you..! =]






Thats the Birthday gal...














And look at the adorable cupcakes!!! I managed to get 1 of the 3 choco cupcakes.. haha or at least what was left of it...








And thats michelle on the left.. The cutest gal at the party.. =]










Am i too old for her?? Sobss =[

Howdy..

Howdy ho bloggie and to all those who read my blog, including stalkers of this blog.. Cough cough..
Well schools been great so far, nice to be back in school ogling at girls... Glad to clear all my modules thou it wasn't exactly with flying colors.. i guess i shldn't be giving excuses, thou it hasn't exactly been a great yr for me..

Well it seems that i'm almost at that corner where i can put things behind me and move on, but you know me i'm not quite there yet.. i just need a kick up my ass to make me stop reminiscing on memories that drag me down.. i wonder why... How was it that i fell so deep? Got so emotionally attached to someone that it affected my life... So hopefully its a last sprint to that corner and hopefully i don't look back...

Looking forward to dating again, thou i hate the whole process... Ha ha. Thanks Ms Trophy for setting up that date or more like introducing her to me.. thou i don't really know if there would any chemistry between us for that part.. Well but shes hot and i kinda like talking to her so far... =] But i guess this is really the wrong timing with exams and assignments all coming up... I wonder if she'll like me...

So i don't wanna keep my hopes up... I guess just go with the flow, if things happen then they do...

Haha yeap and i would only refer to u as trophy cause i would always forget ur name.. hehe sorry.. I would like always go.. Ermm hey what's her name again?


And woo i finally got off my ass and exercised today.. waahaha but it was only a 3k run.. well my friend said "might as well dun run".... well i think its better than nothing... Slowly i would increase my mileage.. A few things i would wanna do in the next few years... Like complete another 21km and a full marathon.. maybe a triathlon or 2...

Anyway i think i need to get down to my studies.. i've been slacking too much.. so time to hit the books... til next time...

Mr Gorgeous

<---Hey Gorgeous Host "Lovely Fiona." Ooh la la.. Hot hot Its been a while my dear bloggie... Last night caught the episode of Hey gorgeous on channel U.. thou there were no subtitles to ease my misery.. it was quite interesting esp when jason was on the show for 2secs.. Well now that u'r a celeb do not forget me fren... Fiona Xie is hot as ever and i liked the chick with the permed hair.. she would have my vote.... =] Shes not the prettiest but i love her hair and her smile.. =] shes got a lovely smile.. haha Well i get to see in sch on occasions.. with that kinda funky hairdo its hard to not see her around, if u know what i mean... Anyway i find myself giving advice to people about love and relationships when i myself am like stuck in a hole... I lie to myself and to her that i'm much better but am i really? I find myself missing her so much... It really doesn't help to be strangers but i guess it would not help being friends either huh? Just wanna hold her again, to taste her sweet lips again.. sigh...when will all this feelings evaporate into thin air... I so wanna move on.. Thats what i tell myself but its not what I'm letting myself do.. I really felt that she was my soul mate.. but apparently she felt that relationships are meaningless... and that time is better spent chasing material possessions and furthering one's career and money making opportunities... Money is everything i guess.. perhaps if i was rich? Will it overshadow my race and gimme a better rate of being with her... Right now relationships all seem so transitory, everyones in a rs just for the sake of being in one.. to be able to feel special and loved.. and after a while it all gets boring and stuff but that was what normally happened i guessed but why was it so different for this gal? will i ever feel the same again for another girl? Only time will tell.. I've to get ready soon.. I'll be back soon bloggie.. Ciaoz.. I wonder if anyone reads my blog? haha take care everyone ... Mr Hey Gorgeous With 187 votes.. haha =] My Friend Jason with his 2 secs of fame..

Well i'm on the topic of love again... how boring right.. this fake commercialized 4 letter word...
Does it really exist? Its been on my mind and seeing one of my acquaintances nick on msn, i began to wonder again and the so called creative juices or whatever thats left off it began to mix around a bit and i began reminiscing times with her...

I remember how she used to tell me she loved me quite often and it was me who hesitated on replying because u wasn't sure.. and i don't tell a girl i love her unless i really do cause i know that girls happen to remember everything..!

Thou i did tell this one other girl that but it was not to bed her but she was my ex then and her grandfather was hospitalised and in a very serious condition so i told her not to worry and that i'm sure everything will be fine and told her at the very end that i loved her.. and i dunno why i said that cause maybe i wanted to give a sort of a assurance that things will be fine even thou we know not whats gonna happen, unfortunately her grandpa passed on. But anyway she brought it up when we were about to break up.. so see what i mean?

Anyway as for this girl, she was officially the 1st girl that i really felt what i thought was love...
So what it love anyway? anyone care to enlighten me?

I see it as just an illusion, the manifestation of the mind, makes you see someone as the person who completes you.. But is it strong? Well not really its suppose to surpass all boundaries but the very tiniest bump on this road and everything breaks down...

Ok i said i thought that i was in love... So how do i actually put it in words... Well i'll try..

Well i feel like a kuckoo but i'll try..

1st of all to "love" someone you got to like the complete package... by that i mean physical, mental and psychological lvl.. haha i make it sound so theoretical. Basically i think that its the physical appearance, by mental i mean like emotions wise and lastly their personality...

As for her i loved her complete package, she was everything i wanted.. hehe kuckoo in her own ways.. most of all i was happy with her and i know for a fact that most guys always look around for other girls but i think that when you're in love other girls don't matter no more.. you don't tink about cheating on her with anyone... and when you can't see yourself without her in your life and you want to be by her side 24/7... You never get tired of her and her little eccentrics cause it makes you smile and reminds you that you're in love.. =]

I'm guessing all these are just feelings that can be created by spending time with someone... or maybe i've just never met anyone that i could connect so well with on every level...

I'll just keep telling myself relationships aren't everything and i'll stick to being by myself for now.. Life in solitude seems much better... I miss my youth where noting and noone seems to matter... Wish i could just lie with her one last time and forget all the things that have kept us apart...

Well thou i have been having lots of free time on my hand, i have absolutely no idea what to do... My life is just so mundane... Would love to go soak up the sun... but no way.. its way to hot, its not like i need a tan...

So ideas on how to juice up this life of mine? well i cld go on a wild sex romp! Clearing this vow of celibacy that i've taken on, haha who am i kidding? more like not gettin any forms of sex, even the dreams have been way to dry for my liking.. Is it just me or are the hormones taking a holiday without me...

As for jobs.. Can't say that i've been off my bum looking for one, neither is there a dying need to get one.. thou the ominous signs of a depleting bank account would make it a very good point to get one... I've spent $250 already shopping... Goodness.. and all this before i even make any money...

I would say i'm not really a spendthrift but more of a miser when it comes to spending money.. i don't exactly have much rite now.. cept maybe abt $500 left?

Found this on football365. Too funny

So many of us ManUtd fans have wondered why Becks and Ruud were sold on the cheap to the only team (other than us) that can be mugged in transfers.

Well, folks the answer is here.

Look at the uncanny connection between the winners of LaLiga and the Premiership in recent years:

2001 Real Madrid-United
2002 Valencia-Arsenal
2003 Real Madrid-United
2004 Valencia-Arsenal
2005 Barca-Chelski
2006 Barca-Chelski
2007 Real Madrid-United

So, Sir Alex realized that since we somehow got paired with Real and not Barca, the only way we could win the Prem was by helping them win La Liga by giving them Ruud on the cheap (and cannily enough, add pichichi and La Liga bonuses while selling). The greatest masterplan of Sir, ever!

By the way, the scum from Merseyside would be paired with Real’s rivals Atletico, that’s why their year never comes.

Its sad to hear that you're departed this world, thou i don't know you that well. I know that you were a really friendly guy. I guess God has a plan for us all... Its scary to think that it was like just yesterday we were in secondary school playing soccer together and now i hope that you get to rest in peace dude... Maybe one day i'll see u again...

Rest in peace Hash

Life is so fragile, i guess you never know when you're next... and if you happen to read my blog this was the very reason i wanted to be with you, because life is so short and it would be great to spend it with that special person. Guess i was never really special in your eyes, i never really saw all those signs i guess i was naive to believe your words. Gd luck with your life, i'm much happier now, thou at times i can't help thinking about you but its all good... So God bless you and your family, hope everythings coming along fine in your life...

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning middle and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the most of it without knowing whats going to happen next.

-Gilda Radner

Econs - C
Maths- B
Stats - B
IBM - D (worse case scenario, hope it ain;t any worse than that..)
Pbf - A(still wishing and hoping for that elusive A)


Well the exams draw to an end finally morrow.. so for now its back to study.. one last burst to the finish line.. results are gonna be kinda disappointing especially for IBM... spent so much time on it.. sigh.. One last hope for redemption lies in PBF, so wish me luck... need to get an A...!

So the much dreaded econs paper is over... and i guess a pass is quite manageable... Anyway morrow is stats and its back to expo again.. Got only 3hrs of sleep last nite.. quite tired now.. but i kinda overdosed on caffeine so can't seem to sleep, so here i am blogging... Anyway not gonna blog too much just wanna set some targets for the finals.. So hope i can acheive this or hopefully with a bit of luck better.. haha.. fingers crossed..

Goal:
Econs - C
Maths - A
Stats - A
Pbf - A
Ibm - B


Haha and yes i just remember something that happened last night while i was "mugging" it was about 3 am and i thought i had enough, so i was feeling abit hungry and i opened the fridge thinkin i would end the studyin with a light snack of whatever there was in the fridge.. and ironically guess what was the 1st thing that caught my eye...

Don't sleep shawny boy.. continue to MUG...!
MUG MUG MUG...
well until next time.. cheers...

the Gallows beckon..

Exams are coming... And as zhi Sheng would put it we'r heading to the gallows... Wish there was more time...

Anyways it seems of late that i keep having misunderstandings with this friend of mine.. i really wonder why? Now i find it really awkward but she thinks that i'm thinking too much.. i guess thats the way she handles things... Another friend of mine said we were probably enemies in our past life, thats why.. haha : ] The thing is i thought we got along really well and now all of a sudden its like quite the opposite... sigh

Its like i wanna help but sometimes i think maybe i'm too helpful and too nice to people... So maybe i should be less friendly and talk less... but our last misunderstanding talking less was the problem..
The thing is for me whenever i have any sort of argument or anything with anyone i like to clear the problem as soon as possible, but with her it doesn't matter and she thinks nothing of it.. but whereas i tend to dwell on matters.. like i think where did i go wrong..

Weds is the 1st paper and thats Econs... And i'm no where near finishing my revision.. i still need to start on my examiners reports...

In need of divine intervention...

“Do you like what you’re doing right now?”

“Do you like what you’re doing right now?”

Seems like a simple question, but it’s not so easy to reply to…

Well can’t exactly say i love what i’m doing.. But what beats being a student right? i’m still a student, but i ask myself what exactly am i studying for? for a better life.. so will getting that piece of paper give me a better life.. well that remains to be answered.. i would probably start of with a mediocre salary and then what? It’ll be day to day work and back home? Is that the life i want?

What do we really want? Doesn't everyone of us dream of being financially free? but how many of us actually take that step forward? Or are lucky enough to be blessed with looks that will get us 5 to 6 digits of endorsements every now and then... imagine getting 5 to 6 digits to do nothing but just hold that product and grace the advertisement with your mere presence... Showing that bit of cleavage to entice the male population and get their tails wagging and believing that this product will make their gfs look as good as what they're seeing.. Some people work their asses off but will probably never live to see a 6 digit amount in their savings account...

Dreams of being financially free is so much a dream right now.. hope i can make that step forward.. and not leave it as it is .. just another dream.. :]
So anyway its back to studying for me, exams coming up in 2 wks time...

Anyway thats all for now... Would like to hear what you people think so do let me know..! ciao...

sadasd

asdasda

Some guy wrote this and I thought it was worth reposting.

Dear Girls (from us guys)...
Don't assume that guys won't care where you are, because we do.
It makes us feel secure to know that our girlfriends aren't off flirting with guys we've never heard of.
Also, don't talk about your ex-boyfriends.
We never have, nor ever will respect or like them, nor do we want to hear about them.
When you do, you're asking your boyfriend to be jealous.
You're asking your boyfriend to lose trust.
On that, don't hump everything that walks into the room.
We don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.
Don't tell us we're wrong.
We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.
Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.
Smile and say "thank you."
Let us pay for you.
Don't "feel bad."
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.
Smile and say - everybody together now - "thank you."
Kiss us when no one's watching.
If you kiss us when you know nobody's looking we'll be more impressed.
You don't have to get dressed up for us.
If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have, put on every kind of makeup you own.
We like you for WHO you are and not WHAT you are.
Don't flirt with guys when we're not around.
We'll find out. Trust us.
We have eyes everywhere.
And when we find out, we're pissed.
Not necessarily with the guys you flirted with, more-so with you.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
Don't talk about how hot Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt is in front of us.
It's boring, and we don't care.
You have girlfriends for that.
Whatever happened to the word "handsome"?
Why does everything have to be "hot/sexy"?
I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of.
Claiming girls or guys to be "hot" shows immaturity.
Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change.
Ditch his sorry, disgrace-to-the-male-popul
ation ass, and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.
Someone who will honor your morals.
Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Well its been a while since i blogged and i noe i've been a emotional wreck all these while but a friend woke me up... Thanks for the wake up call...

I figure that life is too short to be moaning about one person when theres so many others out there whom i love... Theres 2 ways you can look at it, that life's too short and that u wanna spend it with that special person or life's too short and spending your time trying to get that person back is just a pure waste of your time and even more heartache...

I've never let myself get so low before and i thought that the lowest i could go was when my dad left me... But this girl brought me to a new low, well i dunno how i let myself suckered in.. Looks like love is just an illusion that blinds you, does it really exist?

Anyways back to the advice my friend gave me.. My friend was telling me about her uncle who just got his both his legs amputated... It was like on fri he had 2 good legs and on sun he had none and found out that he had cancer and didn't have much time... See life takes a twist for the worse all of a sudden... Today i could be typing this but next week i could be dead... I guess thats life for you...

And theres this other guy whose girlfriend left him for his good friend... so he killed himself by suffocating himself with CO2 in his car... but tell me what good would that do? Killing himself only hurts his parents and his sister and he had it all gng for him... he was smart and rich...
So would his friend and ex gf feel hurt? i bet they would but are they gonna break up just because of him? well that i dunno but how long will their hurt last compared to his parents?

I would certainly not kill myself cause i know that i cannot abandon my mum... Its not an option, killing yourself, its just selfish and a stupid way of taking care of your problem... cmon be smart and theres always another way...

Don't let someone bring you down.. Even when you think that he or she may be the one for you and it turns out that you get cheated and feel like a dumbass... well i certainly feel like one.. but i feel much better now i guess, i hope...

Well take care people and treasure what you have cause you know not what tomorrow holds...

I'm begging you please....

Cause I love you still,
whether it’s right or wrong i can't feel,
And though I can’t be with you tonight,
just know that my heart is still by your side...

If i'm not made for you then why does why my heart tell me otherwise?
I just wanna crawl back into your arms, watch the stars followed by the sunrise...
Is there any chance that you'll take me back into your arms?
I'm begging you please....

We never even had a chance to say good bye...

Another day ending with me being emo again... Feel so dejected and lonely... No one to share my pain with, why isn't she here by my side? when she promised to be with me forever... I' ve cried a river for her and i told myself i'll nvr tear for her again, but here i am once again.. crying like a baby... juz wish i can fast forward this pain..

3rd of Febuary... would have been our 1 year anniversary... well would have if not for my damn race...

Gd nite world ... Sometimes i wish i could sleep and never wake up again... But i can't, theres a huge burden on my shoulders.. My mum and my brothers.. i can't leave them like my dad did.. i need to take care of them...

Wish i could have one more day with you... We never even had a chance to say good bye...

Hit the road jack..!

Its time to reminiscing on the past and to look to the future.. I find myself trying to help people with their relationship problems when i myself am in need of divine intervention... : ] But i'm doing much better now... Deep inside me my heart aches but i know that i'm moving on, as time moves by the aching lessens and i guess the key is not to be alone... I admit that i teared at times but i see nothing wrong with, whats wrong with crying? Does it make you any less a guy? In the past i'm one for suppressing feelings and bottling all up, but since this relationship.. i don't know whats with the emo-ness... I guess she left me with overflowing with emotions.. :]

Anyway focus is not on gals no more.. just wanna concentrate on my books..Doing well so far, alls good.. prelims are due to start next month and the 1st paper is Ibm on the 12th of feb.. hope to score well and at least gauge where i stand, spent alot of time on this module and lets see if its worth it...

Cool Art...

Stumbled upon this artist whilst i was blog surfing and well i would say his art is quite interesting... So check it out... Very orgy-istic kinda orientation...

But i think its quite cool... Here are some pictures i got off the site..
































Do check out the site for more pictures and Bio..
Michael Bilsborough

Cheers :]

What's the point of being socially ettiquete?

Hmmm a friend of mine got me wondering... Well actually not a friend more like an acquintance, a pretty one... hehe Just for the record this is probably the longest i have ever gone unshaven, like 2 wks or so and everyones gng arnd calling me stuff like Whats up Robinson Crusue or Castaway the movie starring Tom Hanks... When i finally decided to shave today, even my shaver was crying out for me to stop, for it was really hard to shave...!

This friend of mine told me that i have to shave because its part of being socially ettiquette or she actually said it more like social " ettiqueccy " don;t know if there is even such a word! But its like i have been so down that i don't really give a f*** of what society thinks of me, but i'm feeling much better now.. is it the drugs? Or is it just me?

The way i see it is that when someone wants to look nice its just that he cares what other people think about him, i'm one such person and i think most people are... Everythings just a big facade,
people wanna fit in and stuff... I guess its the way the world works...


Anyway the beard is off and i'm thinking who's this good looking guy in the mirror? Haha or so i think... I'm wondering why am i listening to this girl ?

Is is because shes just another pretty face? I have caught myself looking at her so very often in classes, that is whenever she sits within my viewing capacity, i hope she doesn't notice me looking at her... :]

And just to make it clear.. i'm most definately not the only guy that looks at her.. the 4 musketeers called her "eye candy" b4 we knew her name.. and i've seen other guys checkin her out as well.. haha

Shes attached by the way, not that i'm interested or have a chance but i don't wanna be thinking of love again, i just can't, not anytime soon... I'll just stick to having good friends for now... :]

So enough of the anemic looking me, i'm now clean shaven and i'm gonna get my hair done, as in i'm gonna get a cut and probably get it highlighted.. always wanted to do it so here i go... But still wondering whether to keep it long or short... Hmmm




i'm still thinking abt you everynight b4 i go to bed... I hope you are safe & well and that you are happy and i hope that whoever you may be with, that he loves you unconditionally....

Your wordsmith signing off...