Yes they are twins....!

BEAUTIFUL twin sisters Alicia and Jasmin Singerl certainly make people look twice.

Alicia has dark brown eyes and complexion, and Jasmin is blue-eyed and fair-skinned.

Experts say the chance of twins being born with such different physical characteristics is about a million to one.

The sisters from Burpengary, north of Brisbane, were born in May.

Mother Natasha Knight, 35, has Jamaican-English heritage, and their father, Michael Singerl, 34, was born in Germany.

Genetics experts say that in most cases a mixed-race woman's eggs will be a mixture of genes for both black and white skin.

However, much more rarely, the eggs may contain genes for predominantly one skin colour.

In this case, Ms Knight has released two such eggs - one with predominantly dark pigmentation genes and one with predominantly fair genes. Non-identical twins are conceived when two eggs are fertilised by two sperm at the same time, which has odds in itself of about 100-1.


Anyway i think that they are so beautiful, if only people can look beyond the colour of ones skin to see how beautiful one is... mentally and physically... But unfortunately the world is not quite there yet on this aspect, so Alicia is bound to be subjected to racism at some point in her life, and wish that she is white just like her sister... Well i guess thats life for you...

sigh... its almost 2am and i'm still awake thinking about her... boy i miss her and shes probably with some other guy now... talked to one of her frens but she didn't wanna tell me if she was seeing anyone but by not telling me its like quite obvious or maybe i'm just being paranoid, i've always been this way. Anyway its been 3months so she's probably moved on from me, i probably meant nothing to her anyways but why didn't i see it coming. she always got me to be optimistic and always got me on my way even me continuing my education was thanks to her, but also because i wanted to do well for her, so i could be with her but all this doesn't matter now.

i mean it doesn't matter to her how i feel for her, nothing much just that she means the world to me. so i guess its like she brought the world tumbling down on me. I wish i could hold her one last time and tell her how much she meant to me i would never let go ever again... never ever..... Why oh why must the world have people classified into races and colour its like so unfair that love can fail because of such a dopey reason... And of all people it has to be me... I feel so lethargic and tired... I have a bloody test morrow and i couldn't even get down to studying... what am i to do? i'm probably gonna fail morrows test.. well gd luck me... and gd nite cyberspace.. i'm gonna try to get back to sleep...

Would it be the same?

As i sat there along the stretch of clarke quay, awaiting my colleagues as they prepared to leave, i couldn't help but notice... Many asian woman with white guys, its not that i'm feeling inferior or in anyway racist or anything i mean why should i? They come here steal our jobs and while their at it they go for the woman as well.. wow, just wonderful... And the thing is the asian woman are probably gonna get hurt or at least that's what i assume.. haha cause some of them probably have families and most are just out on the prowl... i guess most guys are like that or maybe all.

Anyway back to my problem sitting there i couldn't help but think if i were white would it be a different story? Would her parents accept me if i was a caucasian guy, instead of an indian guy? I know talking about races is all taboo and everything but i'm not slandering any races out there... They didn't even give me a chance or maybe she didn't give me a chance, give our love a chance, not like she was fighting for our cause... Or maybe it was all a lie, just a damn bloody big trap which i fell into and tore my heart wide open.

I'm now wondering how the bloody hell i've fallen so deep into this, cause for me it was hard committing to anyone, let alone trusting someone so much. Lets just say i've had a couple of bad experiences... So i guess all those times you told me you loved me was just throwing bullshit, pure crap at me. Well love you too dear...

Fcuking pissed off...

Well fucking pissed off right now... I've decided to boycott the freaking wedding.. i dun give a rats ass... My dumbass maid has spoilt my levis shirt the one which is one of my fav tops... I hate her... i feel so damn pissed, feel like asking to pay for it... but well i can't do that i guess...

A bloody big stain at the bag of the shirt i wonder wtf she did to it... Why must they always spoilt my favourite stuff... And what pisses me off the most is when she said that she never touched it.. so was i the one who washed it? maybe i shld juz do my own laundry... sigh

This was also the shirt that i wore when i met my dear Ms C, at zouk.. haha i remember so well, it was also my company's d&d that nite at the hotel beside zouk i think its called the grand copthorne... and it was a last minute thingy that i decided to go clubbing... It was cuz we had invites so i guess i'm kinda what you would call a cheapo hehe : ] anyways fate i guess brought us together and well i guess it tore us apart.. i wonder what shes up to right now? Just wish we could keep in touch.. i guess its my fault, i couldn't let her go and i guess she felt stifled...

P.S: can anybody help me with this stain?

Time cures it all... doesn't it?

I guess as time flies you tend to forget about the heartache that you've been through, so everyday i think less of her... and as time goes by i hope to just remember the good times we spent together and forget this irritating feeling that has troubled me since she left. I've to admit it sucks and to think that i've done this to other girls, maybe its just karma hitting me back. Well karma fuck you and all your little buddies...

Everyones busy, with their own lives ... All preparing for their exams and stuff but mines like next year. As Nageb would put it my mighty mouse degree is gonna be a tough ride, maybe i should have taken another course... Probably a mickey mouse degree... Well PBf is a blur and econs is right around the corner... Maths and stats are ok thou i seriously need practice and ibm is much like history and theories alot of key concepts to get processed and stored in my ever depleting memory. Well i have to do well...

Adios blogger, til next time... Time to hit the sack... Errm i mean books
Miss you dearie... :[

Is this really the end..?

Is this where it ends?

Til i find you back with me,
beneath all these walls you've put up is my love that'll set us free,
would you still be here with me?

i'm here beggin for yr reasoning,
something that i guess i'll never be getting,

Did u luv me anyway?
i fail and falter since you've been gone,
i feel like i'm always falling down,

when i call ur name,
u'r not here to ease my pain...





P.S:If you read this, baby i still love you and i all i want is to be with you.. but if that is not possible then all i ask is to be frens again...Please don't shut me out cause it hurts so bad.

Hit the books..

Well so been busy with school work and mugging... I'm pretty sure if i put in more effort then things would be a breeze, thankful for the company that i'm mixing with is not as slack as some of my poly mates haha :] no offense dudes... But well maybe it's just me... I guess i just wanna do really well and be able to finish this 3 yrs on a high note, with or without you. I feel like i was a mistake in your life, was i really?

Anyway got acquinted with "eye-candy" today... haha :] boy shes really pretty, i was like man shld i talk to her!!! So i borrowed a little courage from my two friends down there and said hi and we ended up gng to school together... Well looks like i got a new neighbour cause well she lives next door, as in the next block.. Ha ha shes attached if i'm not wrong not like i stand a chance... heh anyway i'm too depressed to think of relationships right now i just wanna stick to my books from now i guess and if love decides to come around then we'll see...

Anyway Ms C i hope you take care and all the best, if you really want it to be this way then i can't do anymore, i really don't know why you're behaving the way you are...

Anyway back to books, test coming up morrow...

Study,study....

Well quite tired today, spent the whole day studying in school, started at abt 2pm - 8pm..then went for dinner with jaydon and joshua at a foodcourt at clementi... We decided against the artery clogging macdonalds,well actually it was more like me,i'm starting to get fat : [ ...

Well i guessed being buried in books will be better for me as it helps to keep my mind from straying but sometimes i can't help but wonder does she even think about me? anyway i've got loneliness for company so who's complaining... anyway does anybody wanna watch the movie departed with me?

Back to studying morrow,but this time its self study at home til abt 5then its off to work at clarke quay... At least get to see some chio bu there...haha. Hmmshld i hit the clubs morrow... its been a while, well actually the last time i really clubbed was when i meet my ex at zouk haha... Well anyway my eyes are fighting to stay open so gd nite cyberspace...

Can't seem to let you go...

I'm trying my utmost best not to face the reality that you're not by my side anymore, i really need divine intervention. If our lives are so short then why won't you let me love you... Please do not cite my race as a reason cause if you did really love me then i don't see a reason why what your parents think should change your feelings for me... I just wanna run back into yr arms dear girl, if you'd only know how much i wanna be by your side... Always reminiscing the times we've spent together... I've fallen so hard for you, that its so very hard to let go, i know you don't understand. Well i don't blame you.

I guess its my fault i should not have exposed my heart to you.. I won't make that same mistake again... I've kept my emotions in check for so long but you've made me so very vulnerable again... I 've sent you so many msgs only to be replied in your silence,which is quite painful if you don't know, what did i ever do to you to warrant such treatment? Don't i even deserve a bit of respect? I've never treated you badly or anything... I just made the mistake of loving you...

Maybe you don't see the point of replying my msgs, you probably think its better to keep quiet... But it hurts like hell, my heart aches... Everyday i pray that my phone rings and that your name appears on my display and that you tell me that you'll take me back...

Well have fun, you're probably seeing other guys anyway so have loads of fun ok... Wish i could step off this ledge and just forget but memories of you i just don't wanna let go...

My little darling.. Ain't she the cutest!!

Oh my god, this girl is like so cute... i'm in love with her.. haha : ] Well i'll just watch it to destress from now onwards... whenever i start to think to much this girl will be my life buoy... I dun't know her personally thou..

Happy deepavali

Well for those who do not know what deepavali is well don't ask me, for i always seem to stupefy. You could say that i've been celebrating this festival for 20++ years now but i don't really know what it actually signifies. Well let me think, its actually called the festival of lights and it signifies the defeat of good over evil, where a demon is slayed and so lamps are lit to celebrate this victory.. well i'm celebrating everyday here man, my lights are always on demonslayer, so well done dude.

But i dun really understand the concept here... well who gives a damn. Its not even a new year and i thought new years are supposed to be like the grand ones.. Cause according to the indian calender there is a certain date for the indian new year, just that i don't know when...

Anyway back to my life, i don't really believe in anything, so i just join in the merry making... by
right i'm a catholic cause of my dad but my mums a hindu... so where does that leave me? My mums the one that takes care of me and my 2 siblings as my parents are divorced and my dads run off after some bitch... I'm not really a firm believer of either but i won't say i'm a non believer... i just think that there is a godly being out there, so sometimes i just say a prayer to "god" whoever and wherever he is...

But like i say i just join in the merry making, anyway deepavali brings about the fact that you have to spend money on new clothes, groceries and bla bla bla... i wish i had money to give to my mum. i'm freaking 23 but i'm still living off her, i feel like a bum. I don't really take money from her i just ask for transportation allowance the rest comes from my part time job. One day i hope i can be financially free, so god i hope you read this : ]

Anyway my mum decided upon herself to get me clothes and mum i love you lots but please do not shop for me haha cause i think that all 4 pieces are quite bad.. well theres one thing i like to do is to don nice clothes and dress well... i know thats bad, guess its just the thing about looking good and fitting in...

anyway boring day... wanted to call her again.. haha yes my dear ms chai, still missing you baby... Like i said there are only 2 times that i've really cried and felt this way in my life one is when my dad left me and the other is when you left me... so i hope you know what you really mean to me cause i've never felt this way about a girl before...

Cruising speed...

Well things are picking up at school and i'm trying to keep myself occupied so that my mind does not wander off and start thinking about her... I guess i'm just trying to force myself into thinking that she'll be back someday, well will she? or is she already dating other guys? She said that she just wants to concentrate on her studies, well tell me who doesn't want to do well? I also want to do well and i believe that we can still be together and motivate each other on... But i guess you're just giving me excuses to break it off... Sorry to be dwelling on this, guess this is the only output for me...

Anyway as i said things are picking up in school and assignments are starting to find their way to me. I can say that i'm struggling a bit in maths.. well actually basically every subject... I need to buck up but i can say that i'm finding it difficult to motivate myself...

time to buck up....

How to keep your woman happy...

This is just an email i received from a friend, which i think is quite funny...

Check it out : Link

So it looks like my woman has left me due to my inability to follow some of these tips. :[

pour mon cher narcissus...

Baby you mean the world to me and i just can't see us apart...
and no matter what you do you're still holding on to my heart...
my world is about to collapse being built around you...
i have never needed anyone so much like the way i need you...

I want to be by your side in everything that you do...
cause i love you so, you know its true...
I just can't live without you, and i want you to know...
i need you like i have never needed anyone before...

P.S : je vous aimer toujours mon cher narcissus, veuillez revenir à moi...

Where is my angel?

They say there are angels everywhere.... So where is mine?

I could really do with an angel right about now, so god send me an angel. Send me someone to guide me and show me the way cause the roads that i'm walking are all winding, never ending and the lights are so blinding that i know not where i'm headed...

I'm just so lost and helpless and losing my strength, i'm trying to put on this brave front but i don't know if i can do this much longer. I just wanna run, keep on running, as far away as possible. A safe haven where i can just lie and forget about everything, but can i really forget? For whenever i'm alone i tend to think, if i can just wipe you out from my memory. Just like the movie, eternal sunshine of a spotless mind, but they still ended up together. I just want to run back into your arms and fall in love with you all over again, i wish you would just take me back... I really can't get it, all those times you whispered those words to me and you're just letting go just like that i don't know how you can do it... Unless it was all just not true, i'm just so hung up over you girl, you probably don't understand what i'm going through here.

So heavens above, i'm waiting for my angel...

Part-timing

Well Chef shawn's in the house... Started working part time in the kitchen at a restaurant at clarke quay. Its quite fun and i enjoy myself, i guess thats what you're looking for in a job. Whats even better is that i don't have to spend a cent on lunch or drinks.

Anyway been working for 2 days now and it has been a brand new experience. Basically i deal with the deserts and salads... And i do other stuff like fish and chips, oysters, calamari and stuff like that... The oysters were quite a challenge, i was struggling to get them open, but after a few struggles i finally mastered the technique.

Anyway i'm getting quite paranoid, i'm starting to imagine things.. Things like seeing you with other guys, i'm even having nightmares about it... God help me please, i just can't take this shit anymore...

Being a sentimental person that i am, i can help it but linger on your pictures that i have on my laptop. Wonderful moments captured in that instant, moments that will last forever. I'm just upset that we don't really have any pictures together. Thou i know having memories can be painful, i cherish the moments that i have spent with you... Unlike your apparent approach of choosing to forget the existence of a certain me.

You could say my tears are drying up now, thou i don't know if i can ever really forget. I really thought that you were the one that was meant for me and now you've left me and there seems to be nothing that i can say or do...

Self motivation..

Went for a motivational talk yesterday... It was called how to be a people magnet... Yeah you're probably thinking its to attract members of the opposite sex, well the talker did give a few tips thou haha. Anyway this guy is called Christian Chua and he's now 39 and has been financially free since the age of 29. For those of you who do not understand what this means, it actually means not having to work for another freaking day of your life again... Doesn't that sound great, especially in this day and time of singapore where we all just following one another into this so called routine of working and working but for wat? So we can have a better life?

Well i hope i can motivate myself more and be just like him. 1st and foremost i have to be more extrovert as i think i'm the type of person who likes to keep to myself and doesn't like to hang out in too crowded places... Well i guess i have to improve as a person and that theres alot of things out there for me too learn and improve myself in.

Mummy can i get a BMW Roadster pls

Well finally passed my driving!! Glad to have finally done so at least i don't have to do anymore driving lessons... Haha

Well i thought i was almost a certainty to fail again and find myself at the terminal booking my next test date. Thanks to Mr.Hong(the testor) again for his leniency and to my instructor Mr quek (driving instructor). Well i actually made more mistakes then the 1st test and i was thinking to myself, why the hell am i driving so badly... Stalled on the slope, drifted onto another lane while turning even had a fussy pedestrian who couldn't decide whether to cross the road or not, resulting in me having to do a sudden brake. Anyway its all over now and spent quite a bit...

probably abt 25 lessons, 3 circuits, 2 tests

25 lessons = 25*24 = S$600
3 circuits = S$180
2 tests = S$360
Total = S$1140

Man $1140 of which came from my own savings, from army days of course... Feeling quite broke now.. but well at least its over and now time to get a car haha... Mummy can i get a BMW Z4 M Roadster pls??

On my way...

Hmm i'm kinda moving on i guess, well kinda... Haha.. Anyway had a bit to drink and called her the other day and was hoping for a chance to get back together, but i guess she's stronger than me. I'll just let you be since thats what you want...

Anyway in view of a lighter note spent some time with the guys on sat, we went down to town and i finally got myself a pair of shoes, from beetlebug and had a 15% discount too thanks to Gang's uob debit card which had no money in it. Well it was tough fight between a shoe from zara and this shoe which i decided upon after much contemplation, probably much to the annoyance of ssfoo and gang. We even had to make a return trip back to wisma after i decided on that shoe...

Also sat down outside indochine and talked about stuff and also about ssfoo's dilemma with girls... Haha man don't worry... I'll be your hitch... Any problems just gimme a call.. Thou i'm feeling down now, i can always help you in that matter or at least hope to help... Well take care everyone, especially you my Narcissus...